So this maybe one of those really pointless pages where you will glance over it and dismiss everything you have read...that is exactly what it should be...all I ask is that when you are reading this that you might relate in someway within the many emotions that flow through our very bodies/minds with every breathe we take.

This is a story about what love does to a person as weak as I am.

No one is in it more than I was yet as a paradox "I" was not. As sad as it may sound Self Blame and Wanting the Best, will never come to be as I have a part of me that loses everything, this being my mind...Forgetting things/Giving no time/Passing time/Wasting away/Avoidance...all me and yet not wanting it be.

I gave "all" of a "part of me" is how it will be. I was never a whole person to begin with. Mind, Body and Soul, take into account God and we got ourselves a very large heap of mess when wanting all to co operate and make what I so call "Love" for someone a full commitment.

Putting all my eggs in the basket, including the ones in my head to make that special someone actually feel it and not left on the side like a second thought.

Now I don't wanna lose you
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side

And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry

And that don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
And I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall

Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all

It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
And do you feel me beside you in your bed?
There beside you, where I used to lay

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love, it just ain't enough

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Love ruined me and yet I feel like I have little to offer the next Lucky one in my life.
Having someone find me fascinating, adore me, want to be with me, as do i them.....I fear it wont be all of me like the first time.

Complicated is what I call it and yet not complexing, the outcome as its who i am and for the other to know this and still want me.....She will be special that i want only to spend the rest of my life with her.